First of all, I know this is awkward but everytime you post pictures of you and her on Instagram, the sense of jealousy kills me and my heart breaks into pieces. I wonder, why do I'm so afraid to lose you when you're not even mine ? Why do I get jealous when we're not even a couple? Well, that's one of the reasons why I'd deleted my Facebook and Instagram accounts permanently. Perhaps, some people may think I act so immature but that's the only way for me to stop stalking and thinking of you. However, my plan isn't working because I keep on thinking about you every single time especially when I'm alone. 

Do you remember when I sent a message to you via Facebook to ask you a question last week? To set the record straight, I actually wanted to ask whether you've feelings for me or not but silly me, I replied " I already have the answer so it doesn't matter anymore". I lied ! I've tried to move on but I can't. I'm sorry but I need to stay away from you for awhile. To be frank with you, I purposely change my seat in the church so that I can concentrate on Father's sermon and stop staring at you, of course. Besides, I know it's impossible for us to be together. Deep inside my heart, I know you deserve better because I'm not good enough for a guy like you. I don't think I can find someone like you because you're perfect to me. Hey, the girl whom you always take pictures with, she's a good girl, I can bet. I hate to say this but both of you can be a perfect couple... Even if I don't get you as my life partner, I hope that you'll always be happy. I'll try my best to throw this feeling away no matter how hard this gonna be. Maybe I should just concentrate on my study and let the time flies. Be happy la you two... ! Fuhhh... Feel better after confessing..

P/s: You look so cute and handsome everytime you smile..